As I was told before by Recs, the happiness depends on the possibility to live and create your own life.
I just remember my searching for the shelter in my youth.
I coudn't do anything with my obsession - feelings to Pastor.
If a person has an obsession like in my case, it would make only hard life for him.
I don't want to repeat my mistake and think that life is just the feeling.
If you do so, you can be easily lost.
I've decided to give up this old habit of mine.